Too Clever, Making silly Mistakes

25th of September, 2008 Thursday
 

For 14 years of study not including kindergarden, kindergarden was a lot more easier. I have been a student with average scores. But all of this comes with a little reading. Never have I really go and open a book and read through every page, every word of it. It sickens me to see all the book.

Maybe i was born with too much intelligence. This has made me become lazier and lazier. Not to mention more creepy in the sense of homework. but the good thing is I never skip class from Standard 1 until after Form 5. Curious? really every year full attendance. I remember when i gone for Motorcycle license exam, 10am just go school haha. After exam straight fly go school. Everybody was shock... what an idiot. Sick? I go to school but sleep at school.

Every time exam i didn't study, last minute is my style. 4 hours then its all over and get ready to exam. Maybe i am lucky, sometimes got tips sometime dont. Maybe my bombing skills has develope into a much higher level. I dont memorize, i use images to go for exam. Weird, but dunno how i manage it. Everything went smoothly through all the years. Exam get average scores, assignment pass with normal grades. Mention of assignment, i am an idiot in assignment. I dont do much as i do not know much. Just manage to help a little bit... useless.

Everything went too smooth for me. As ppl say hard time comes after smooth sailing. Just before the semester break, I get a fail in my thesis. Need to resubmit. Somemore my supervisor will be on leave just after the last day of exam. What da f*ck........ i need to comfirm alot of things with him before exam. Pressure from exam plus thesis, those days aren't good to have. Totally Zero mood... 3 days find him 3 time, get scold 3 times...

Now i am so scare i will fail and repeat that idiot subject. Resubmit and fail again... really no face see other ppl. Ppl might think i am a super idiot, to fail such subject and not exam. Haiz so many things to worry. I also dont know how to tell my parents if i fail... Tell them i fail then need wait another year??? tell them i fail because i was lazy??? What reason to give? What consequence will i take in the end?? SO many factors to consider...

Oh GOD pls help me... look at the bright side i would go to work for a year to gain experience, the dark side i cant further my studies until another year have pass. Old d la when come out haiz.... how how how???

FOr so long i have been clever and teasing ppl about their studies, now its my turn. The pressure is cooking. And thanks to my good roommate, if i pass nothing happen. If i fail the whole world will celebrate my failing =.= such a bunch of good friend i have......