It was a normal working day, but i was full on energy.
Was gonna send Mooncake to a friend's house.
by the way, i didn't buy the mooncake.
It just happen to be a gift from Fishing Tackle supplier.
Nobody at my house was gonna eat it, not a fan of mooncake.
So i decide to give other people, so that they could appreciate the mooncake.
The packaging for this year quite nice. It give out a lot of Chinese vibes.
I was thinking the whole morning should i give or not.
My friend is not at home, and will she be mad about it.
I just give them on my own accord. I don't know.
Struggling...
After lunch i make a decision to give. So i sms her.
Then i started to become worried... she didnt reply my sms.
Is she busy, Is she ignoring me, Is she mad at me.
I kept thinking all the worst scenario. Arghh...
And still 30minutes has gone pass, still no reply.
I dont care anymore, i just drove car to her house.
In between the journey to her house, negative thoughts keep appearing.
I just wan to give them mooncake, so that they can celebrate.
Her parents are alone at home. Maybe her eldest sister is near to them.
But still missing out on other sons and daughter.
I dont know if they felt the same as my parents.
My parents once gone through this feeling.
All of us brothers went to Penang to work and to study.
Two lonely dad and mum at home. Only have each other to care for.
So i just reach and lucky her mum is home.
The funny thing is, my mouth get stuck again.
Words cant come out properly, my voice jam...
Just give then wish a happy mooncake festival then back to my office.
I was always bad in communicating with adults.
Just send a sms to her to notice her i gave the mooncake.
And again no reply. Is she really mad at me now...
I cant have a peace of mind. Thinking and kept thinking did i do wrong.
Everything seems to be blank, emotionless.
I failed again. Doing something without thinking of consequences.
I felt the pain while waiting for her sms.
At least reply me a "OK" or scold me that i shouldnt have sent the mooncake.
I didnt know what you are thinking, holding at my phone.
Waiting and waiting.
Finally after i woke up from my sleep from 10pm to 1am.
She replied. She didnt bring along her phone with her the whole evening.
And i replied back. This time, again she didnt reply.
I was like erm, this waiting is killing me.
I knew she was awake, that why time is killing me while waiting.
After all, when wanna went to sleep.
I notice my other phone got message.
She off her phone, using another phone.
I didnt know what to say, laugh? speechless.
While i was holding my phone waiting for a reply that would never come.
I feel laughable. I cant stop thinking that how this world has treat me.
All the anxiousness, the thoughts, the things that happen today.
It really make my life. I am glad i was born to this world.
Fate really did played a part...
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