Hurt

26th of June, 2009 Friday


All hope has gone,
Why would this happen.
Is there anything i can do,
How does it turn out like this.
Hopeless Sad Hurt Motionless,
All that's left for me.


I don't want such life,
Its hard to accept all of this.
There's a will there's hope,
But it struck me with full will.
Have i done anything wrong,
As to sustain such pain in my heart.


Why cant u just ignore all my things,
Just let me be what i want to be.
You need not say it all loud and clear,
At least let my life still got meaning.
Is it so hard to let alone my feelings,
Why must you be so clear about it.


Somewhere in the corner of my heart,
There is still some memory of you.
I am not a rubber to erase all the things,
If I could I would have done it long ago.
All those pieces of broken memory,
I hope to glue it all up to a perfect memory.


Although water flows down the stream,
I would build a dam to stop and retain it.
Overflow of water in the dam,
I would build more fast and more stable dam.
All this i would work hard for,
Just to keep all those thing and achieve it.


Am I totally hopeless useless,
The answer remains unknown to anyone.
Is it I haven't improve from the past,
Or all the change I have done is invincible to you.
Is it very hard to understand my feels,
Why I kept felt that there's a wall between us.


Is it My stupid stubbornness causes this,
Give up maybe the only way out.
Is there no other way to rebuild the memories,
I don't want to choose the only way out.
Miracle happens every when and then,
But would it happens to open a path for me.


You can say straight what you want,
I also know its hard for you to control all this.
But your life I would not make it into despair,
I will be standing far enough just to have a look.
Although the shadows have gone far past my vision,
I would still hoping someday I could look at your face.


As for now avoidance is better for me,
There is no other choice to choose from.
Slowly taking and absorbing all the pain,
Curing and standing again is my only hope.
May the pain ease my will to be stronger than ever,
Everything will lead to its own path and destiny.


As for yesterday I would still sing,
Tonight will be the night I fall for you.
As for today I would feel lonely,
Tonight is the night I fall apart because of you.
As for tomorrow I would pick up myself,
Tonight will be the night I arise and stood firm.


Everything is taking its shape,
I could slowly see everything clearly.
For one thing I could not see,
Is it you who will be my soul partner.
But in all the picture of mine in the future,
There will always be you standing beside me.